journaling

Dear kundan you know about yourself that you are a soul which is never destroyed by anything and also know that all things is just illusion and temporary in this universe and whatever created in this universe it will dissolve in this same universe and not any thing will survive in this universe and all will again create by same power and world will survive again and not matter what all this come in same form so that not anythings will ever loss this what program by god and you understand this very well and no matter what you are living your best life and all things working for you and working good in your favor and you are grateful about this 

1. i am grateful to universe for giving me what i wanted and always in my favor 
2. i am grateful to universe for becoming biggest investor on this planet and traveling whole world with my safe and secure wife she is caring , lovely and intelligent and all things working for us we are living our best life on this planet 
3. i am grateful to universe for giving me dreamiest house in which we are living togather  and all things are working for us no matter what situation is we are living abudance life 
4. you know that all thing working for you and you are enjoying your life so much and you are not blaming anyone because you understand your inner self that all things comes from same place that you never know 

Some naked truth hurts more than a knife Timescale.

Kundan timescale

 Some time you face with your naked reality then you feel like it didn't happened with me but you have to accpet that it's your reality and you have to let go of these things and move ahead in future and build new future based on your inner principal which lead you to your dream goal and what you wanted most in life 

Life always shows you what image inside you hold and changing your image and making new image for how your look like 

Now i know myself and i am enjoing my life so much 

New default mode 3.0

New default mode

1. becoming best virsion of myself 
2. becoming bigest investor on this planet
3. know myself on deep level 
4. understanding my element who i am
5. trusting myself more than anyone else 
6. loveing myself more than anytime 
7. choosing myself in every time 
8. not hating myself never 
9.  
10. 
    

Self

All about self

1. Self is divine 

2. 

goal and purpose

Goal

@End goal

    A. Less desire 

    B. Sanyaasi 

    C. Dissolve all desire and individuation.           if not then wait for next.              induction(next birth)

    D. Repeat again until moksha 

@Long term(10-30years)2040-70

    A. Health and fitness goals 

    B. Wealth goals 

    C. Material things goal

    D. Relationship goals

    E. Career goals 

    F. Hobbies and adventure goals 

    G. Networking goals 

    H. Top 0.0000001% mindset goals 

    I. Spiritual goals 

    

@Short term(5-10years)2030-40

     A. Health and fitness goals 

    B. Money &Wealth goals 

    C. Material things goal

    D. Relationship goals

    E. Career goals 

    F. Hobbies and adventure goals 

    G. Networking goals 

    H. Top 0.0000001% mindset goals 

    I. Spiritual goals 

@yearly(1-5year)2025-30

    A. Health and fitness goals 

    B. Money&wealth goals 

    C. Self improvement goal 

    D. Material things goal 

    E. Dating &Relationship goal 

@present(3mon-year)2025-26

  A. Health and fitness goals 

  B. Money &Wealth goals 

  C. Self improvement goal

@Day by day goal routine 

Morning rituals 

Self improvement 

Study 

Fitness 

Eating bath ready 

Duty and doing practical of self improving 

Market 

Meditation &book

Cooking & eating 

Study and skill development 

Night rituals 

what is my simp and simpi relationship dynamic

How simp fullfill simpi need and how simpi received 

How simpi fullfill simpi need and how simp received 

1. 

what is my responsibility in relationship

1. Outside work

2. Breadwinner 

3. Accountable for my work 

4. Physical safety 

5. Emotional safety 

6. Financial safety 

7. Leader 

8. Don't talk in rude language to her

9. Reassure her

10. 

making unconscious behaviour conscious

Here i making all my unconscious behaviour conscious by awareness and giving options to choose differently 

Step1- problem/situation 

Step2- fear response 

Step3- mask operator (protector)

Step4- awareness 

Step5- facing with calm/courage/intelligence/respectfully 

1. When someone seeing me when I am doing something 

F - Fawn response 

M- Over explain mask

A- i will do i what i was doing I will not explain anyone why I am doing now i don't got reaction if they watching me

healing my all trauma

Here is all my study material which i used in healing my childhood trauma 

Attachment theory

Here is how people connect other people because of their childhood attachment style 

1. Secure attachment 

2. Anxious attachment 

3. Avoidance attachment 

4. Disorganised (fearful abuse) attachment 

Default mode 4 new beliefs

1. I accept people as they are i don't have any judgement of another soul they have right to full expression of their true self

2. I don't search mate for my unmeet need to be fulfilled which i didn't get in childhood 

3. I search for companion who can sustain with me in every stages of life and have good quality 

4. Trigger is my best friend to tell me forgive that part and beautiful grateful and connect to my highest self 

5. I don't want things from my partner in order to get what i didn't get from my parents I want safe and secure connection not anxious or avoidance 

6. My partner is not source of love and happiness but she is extention of that and I am extension of her love and happiness 

But our source of love and happiness is myself and herself. We are no dependent of to get love and happiness instead we add to each other 

my discipline life

Here is my daily discipline task 

1. Health 

#healthy food

#gym and sunlight 

#peacefull environment 

2. Wealth 

#building business 

# personal brand and social status 

# networking with people 

# build brand

# trading and investing 

3. Relationship 

# safe and secure connection 

# authenticity 

# respect 

# friendship 

# intimacy and love 

# relationship vision 

4. Curiosity 

# social skills 

# hobby 

5. Greater than life (spiritually)

# pranayam 

# meditation 

# yoga

# charity 

# satsanga 

# contentment 

# reading Shastra 

# spirit of enquiry 

6. Distraction eliminating 

# material distraction 

# emotional distraction 

# virtual distraction 

# environmental distraction 

# spiritual distraction 

7. Vision board 

# health 

# wealth 

# relationship 

# curiosity 

# distraction eliminating 

# spiritually 

Mask i wear and healing

There are many types of mask i weared 

Fear of failure 

Fear of rejection 

Fear of unworthy 

Fear of vulnerability 

Need for approval and love 

Fear of abandonment 

Fear of powerlessness 

Fear of not being good enough 

Trauma and emotional pain

Because of these fear and pain we develop mask below 20 protective mask

1. People pleasures mask

2. Perfectionist mask

3. Tough mask

4. Funny mask

5. Over achiever mask

6. Care taker mask

7. Rebel mask

8. Over confident mask

9. Silent and invisible mask

10. Agressive mask

11. Intellectual mask

12. Social butterfly mask

13. Romantic charmer mask

14. Spiritual helper mask 

15. Busy mask 

16. Stoic mask 

17. Victorious mask 

18 chameleon mask

19. Victim mask

20 overlay positive mask

1. Eating time

2. Talking to friends 

3. Study time

4. Talking to brother 

5. Talking to sister 

6. Talking to mother 

7. Talking to father 

8. Asking money time

9. Giving money time 

10. Bathroom time 

11. Outside from home

12. Talking about love and relationships 

13. When in bad situation 

14. When someone talking about my life

15. When doing what i hate

16. When simp abuse me 

17. When someone want me to tell clear 

18. When someone asking my time

19. 

Reflection feedback learning

Anxious attachment people 

Healthy people but not trusted 

Close trusted and healthy person 

Most comfortable and trusted person 

Fair weather people 

Toxic people 

list of things I am eliminating and keeping

Eliminating people 

1. Vikas

2. Deepak

3. Abhishek 

4.prabhat

Keep people 

1. Pradeep 

2. Gautam 

3. Rahul

4. Ankaj

5. Amit

Eliminating place 

1. 

Eliminating doing things 

Eliminating habits 

heart broken lesson

1. Asking money is red flag no matter what never give money until you have good physical intimacy in one year duration 

2. If she is avoiding you by giving you time 

It means she is in affairs with someone else 

3. If she is interested she will talk about you 

4. Don't be fucking desperate to her there is abundant girl like her

5. Be bad boy if you are hiding something hit it with conviction don't fear

I am not going to force you to choose me i you think you can do better elsewhere 

Move on

I am not going to hold you back life is too short to hang on to someone who isn't sure they want to stay or not

love

01/09/2025

Massage came

02/09/2025

Little conversation but her mobile hanging 

03/09/2025

Ask m no. And money 

04/09/2025

Avoiding 

dating related learning

1. Adjust your bio photo and compliment style time to time 

2. Don't send double massage continuous first see response of her

3. Don't be exact clear cut conversation girl like to enjoy playing games 

4 take 4 min time to reply of any girl

5. If girl like you then there is no hard problem 

6. Don't take seriously of massage of any girl they want shit test on you be playful give reply in Jokes 

7. If they are interested in you the they will lead conversation you just follow up

8. If they want your no then they will play game that they are going leaving or whatever 

9. What they are texting obeserb what intention behind it

observation checklist for g by pic

1. See her both eye lashes are healthy or not if not it means she is traumatized 

2. See her different look what she is projecting and which look she is hiding 

Green flag 

1. Eye lashes healthy and thick with not deep enough 

2. If she is giving whole look with smile 

3. She is showing vulnerability even little bit 

4. She doesn't care about background picture 

5. She is showing openness in her bio with no resistance 

Red flag 

1. Eye lashes thin and damaged or black and deep eye

2. She is giving only one look

3. Not sign of any vulnerability 

4. Every background is shining 

5. Showing rigidness in bio

6. Don't show close look

7. Understand what is hiding 

task for getting autonomy 2025

1. Having debit card of international 

2. Driving licence 

3. Collect all documents which need in future 

4. Have emergency fund for 6 months 

5. Have good friends who support you 

6. Make list of new default mode

7. Have vision board always in mind 

8 distraction control checklist 

9. Remove all your mask and cultivate your true quality and beautiful yourself